All is fair in love and war - Thats what she said

'Love all, trust a few, do wrong to none' - William Shakespeare

Everyone rants and strongly believes in 'Karma' (the new-age terminology for fate). Karma, fate, destiny etc. they all have the same meaning and anyway you slice and dice it, what goes around what comes around. For me its hard. I can love all, trust to many and somehow do a little too much damage. A little birdy recently told me I have it coming. I disagree, or I'd like too. I was so positive, excited for changes in my life, ready to move on (literally) and NOW I find myself in ditch I cant get out of. Everyday I want to better my life, do what I keep saying I want to do. Everyday I have a fear that my sporadic decisions can lead to regret in the future. Everyday I wonder how on earth can I avoid the inevitable? It's coming and I feel it, this so-called karma. In my last relationship there were a lot of points in which I found myself being a bit irrational. I look back and think... maybe I was to hard on the guy? I think of every previous relationship I have ever been involved in (all 2 of them), and of previous collapsed friendships and wonder are those the reasons why I tend to end up loosing what I have due to 'karma'? Never mind all the b.s which has been said I am not this perception everyone has of me. It's upsetting when you have a few life-ruiners out to get you on your every move. Going out of town isn't even enough these days. I might have to go out of the country next. I'm not naive and know that no matter what someone always has a side-note on my actions, I just so happen to know the trio starting it all now. How do you knock some sense into 20 somethings? Cant. I tried. I explained. I guess I am not the only one open for the 'young excuse' now I am?

To top this all off... due to my exhuberant spending I find myself not seeing Vampire Weekend this Thursday which has me on an ultimate low right now...

PS. I was bit by a jellyfish sunday :( - Im telling you even the ocean is out to get me


Oh Tuesday is far to far